I Am Worthy
Date: 25th Sep 2021
Saturday, September 18, 2021
Plane to Los Angeles (LAX)
The Friendly Skies
“I Am Worthy”
Venom #8 is in the books, and the lockdown has officially ended. Todrick and Austin are on a private plane on the way to LA for the Illusions LA grand opening gala. Austin is in a mood, and he’s been sniping at Todrick all night behind the tower lockdown. Austin was now in Dynasty, and that was all that mattered to him. Todrick was tired and didn’t really want to go, but he also needed to be supportive of MIL Network. Austin was sleeping, and Todrick was okay with that.
”These last few weeks still seem unreal to me. It is still sinking in that I am the Manhattan Champion. Joe Montuori was a tough challenge, and I learned so much in the ring facing him. I sometimes think that people forget that we are always still learning in this business. I am always going to be learning from people like him, and I’m okay with that. I didn’t have a match this week, and in truth, I’m grateful for that. The recovery time from a match of that caliber is tremendous, and Joe really brought it. He did not hold back, and it shows. I have been sore, and everything hurts after that. I had to pretend that everything was okay for Austin’s sake, or that would’ve been an ordeal that I was not willing to accommodate.
So what kind of champion am I going to be? I don’t want to just carry a belt around and tell everyone that I am a champion. I want to be different. I want to make a difference. That food and clothing drive was a huge success, and I believe that I made FIGHT! NYC proud of me. That was just the beginning, and I plan to keep doing things to give back and get our brand out there that way. That is simply who I am. I just need to figure out how to map out this program. But first, I need to map out what I am going to do at Venom #9 when I face the Empire Champion, Dickie Watson.
Dickie is someone that has been at the top of the mountain since we began this journey here. I saw his tenacity at Blood Money weeks ago, and he continues to prove why he holds the top spot. He is someone that has been untouchable by all, and though he has his issues with Paul Montuori, with the lockdown in place, it is just going to be him and me out there. I still feel like I’m climbing in a sense, but I have proven to myself and the world that I have what it takes, which I needed. The first lesson was that I am enough and the next lesson is that I am worthy. My journey seems like the same one of anyone else, but it has a deeper meaning to me.
Now that the world knows some of my backstory, that isn’t the end of my story, and that isn’t all I have to say. My teenage years were an entire mess, and I didn’t know who I wanted to be, and I felt like I had no purpose. I was completely miserable in my own skin. I had two friends, but I felt like the world around me was toxic. I wanted a childhood like I saw on television, but that wasn’t in the cards for me. Sometimes, I wanted to go be on an island by myself, and I thought that would make me happy. Those days hardly anything made me happy. These days Austin makes me happy, and my career makes me happy. Seeing my name on the card next to the Empire Champion makes me happy.
He may not feel the same way, but that does not matter. His faction does not matter this week, and they will not be allowed to interfere, and I do not have a faction, so that suits me just fine. Austin was right; this is really turning into a faction war, but he said he has it and wants me to stay out of it. I’m actually fine with that because I have enough drama going on right now. The silver lining is the drama on The Life is a paid gig. That is draining, though, and then there is the drama that comes with the love of my life. That is a book that I’m going to write one day. I love Austin, but life can be complicated with him. He has been trying so hard lately, and I understand his struggle because I continue to fight with myself when it comes to my in-ring acumen.
When I watch Dickie Watson when he takes the center stage, he always seems so sure of himself. I never see panic or worry on his face. He owns his craft and abilities. It wasn’t fluff when I told him on Twitter that I hoped to be the caliber of champion that he is. I respect him. The qualities he displays, I hope that is what I project to the audience. I feel loved, but I don’t want just to be loved because I am the expected underdog in these situations. I don’t like the fact that I am considered an underdog. I am enough, and I know that, but now I need the world to believe that. My therapist has been making me look in the mirror and say, “I am worthy,” and I am. I know that woman is so glad to see us on her schedule. We have probably paid off her house.
But what does worthy even mean? Does Dickie think I’m worthy of facing him in a match? Lately, Austin has been feeling the sting of my star rising and his floating. Does he think I’m worthy? If I am enough, how can I not be worthy? I believe that I am if I wasn’t, then what am I even doing. The people that I am facing in the ring now I have watched and admired over the years. I know that there are some that would scoff at the mention of me admiring Joe. But love him or hate him, you can’t take away from all the things he has accomplished in this business. I admire that. Sure his antics can distract, but he’s earned that right. Dickie earned that right to be in this faction war mess.
Dickie has earned the right to walk around confident and even cocky if he wants. I do not agree with what happened between him and Paul at Toxic Tag, but that also isn’t my fight. Paul is a good guy, and Austin and I love him, but that simply isn’t my fight. I can, however, use the situation to my advantage. Even though we are on lockdown, Dickie is in a situation where he always has to look over his shoulder, waiting for a member of Dynasty to strike. The fact that he is the Empire Champion alone means the target on his back is greater than the target on my back. That is always on his mind, so any sign of distraction, and I will capitalize on that. Austin has literally beat that into my head during our training sessions. If I sense that he is overconfident, then I will play the game and lure him in because that is when you make mistakes.
I am worthy because I know that I have those tools at my disposal, and I am not afraid to use them. I am willing to do what it takes and tap into the killer instinct that I know is there. I guess I should try to sleep before we get there. I have no idea who was on the guest list, but I’m going to be on Austin duty anyway, so there is that. I’ll just rest my eyes for a second.”
Monday, September 20, 2021
“The Fruits Of My Labor””This place is beautiful! Joe really spared no expense making this place worthy of a champion and a Montuori. He reached out to Austin and told him that we could take the place as is, and he had his personal effects moved. That was kind of him, and this is the Joe that I know he wishes the world could see him as now. I guess that is something we all go through in this business. We want the world to see us a certain way, especially when we change for the better. I wonder how Dickie wishes the world saw him or if he cares for that matter. Let’s be honest, we all care, but we have to say we don’t. From what Austin has told me about Sahara, she seems to be the queen of this. Speaking of Austin, look at him over there glistening with sweat after moving all of our stuff. I love that he is old-fashioned in the sense that he does not want me doing the physical labor portion of this. I’ve learned to appreciate the fruits of my labor, and for all the chaos that comes with him, this is definitely a benefit. Just being in this suite is one of those lovely pieces of fruit. But since I’m here, I need to make good of it. Let me get up and talk to my Rockstars for a minute.”
Todrick gets up and grabs his phone. He goes live.
Todrick Tabor-Ramsey: Hey Rockstars! I am coming to you live from Hearst Tower in the Manhattan Suite. That’s right, y’all, the Ramseys are finally moving in. First, I want to send my love to Joe and Mia during this difficult time. Joe was kind enough to contact us and let us know it was good to move in. I didn’t want to bother him because he had enough going on. That is the guy that I know he wants you all to see. But look at this place. I know right, it’s absolutely gorgeous. So is that man right there. Say hi, Austin.
Todrick turns the camera around to show a sweaty and shirtless Austin Ramsey.
Austin Ramsey: Hi Austin.
Austin goes back to rearranging boxes, and Todrick laughs.
Todrick Tabor-Ramsey: Goofball. Anyway, as you all know, this week on Venom #9, I am facing the Empire Champion, Dickie Watson, in a singles match. That is another showstopper that your girl is in. I’m thankful to FIGHT for believing in me the way all of you do and putting me in a match of this caliber. Now, don’t you fret, my Rockstars, because I know you have seen what a mess these factions have become, and we know that Dickie is a part of one, and I am not. FIGHT has some new rules in play that will prevent some of that chaos, so we should have a match without interference. Besides, I’m sure they don’t feel like they would have to have all of them for little ole me, right?
Well, this ass isn’t little, but she is cute or whatever. This Manhattan Championship belt that I am holding says that she isn’t little. This belt is a fruit of my labor and proves that I am willing to go the distance when everyone thinks I will fall. The last time I saw you, I told you that I was enough, and today I am here to tell you that I am worthy. I am worthy of facing Dickie Watson, I fought my way up the mountain, and I am still on that grind. I am worthy of standing opposite of him, and this is not considered a filler match just to pad the card with more matches. I’ve watched Dickie since it all began at Blood Money, I’ve seen his evolution over the last few months, and I have to say that I am impressed.
He has stayed on his throne, and despite all obstacles and the people who would see him fall, he is still there. That is who I aspire to be like in this business. So I am honored to be his challenger this week. Champion versus Champion, no one loses in the booking of this match. That said, someone has to lose this match, and I am going to do my absolute best to ensure that person is not me. I have been hard at work training for this match. I have watched some of his other matches so that I can see his tells and get my timing down for counters. You have to put in the work to get the fruit that I spoke of earlier. Hard work makes you worthy.
Alright, my Rockstars, it’s time for me to make this beautiful palace fit for a King and Queen and then take care of my hardworking man. I love you all. Muah.
Todrick stops recording, and puts the phone down. Austin walks up behind him and grabs himself a handful, and whispers in his ear.
Austin Ramsey: Go make me a sandwich with love, woman.
Todrick giggles and nods.”Honey, I will make him whatever he wants if he keeps doing that. But I earned that, just like I’ve earned all of this. I am happy that I am finally in the headspace to admit that and enjoy it. I am enough, and I AM WORTHY.