[JmOnT/mIa] A Fear i HOPE to never see! [PoWeRmOvEs]

By: Joe Montuori

Writing Prompt: No

Date: 30th Oct 2021

[Fear is a feeling or an emotion. Everyone has them. They are lying if they say they don’t.]

LOSING MIA

[She has been a blessing for me. Now I know that most things I do or say, I bring it upon myself. I have a big mouth and like to throw my weight and money around. But everyone knows what they are getting when they deal with me. And yes at the end of the day I will do whatever needs to be done to get the job done. I may have to hurt a close one on the mission but I will make it up to them. But recently I have been learning a lot about myself, love and the future.]

[Right after that last war with Dane Preston, and then Ascension where Dynasty fell apart at the end. I sat back that night, icing my shoulder and thinking to myself. “Is this it? Have I really come to the end?” But that is when Mia came into the room and sat right next to me. She put her arm around me and looked into my eyes and said “Baby, you hit a speed bump. It’s no big deal. Everyone knows that you always overcome a downfall and comeback even better.]

[Sitting there hearing that was like a wake up call to me. It’s not over. If the woman that loves me is standing by my side through all of this and believes in me, I need to suck it up and get back to what I do best. I looked back at Mia and said to her “You are truly a gift sent to me by GOD. You really are the one for me. The one that completes me. The one that is making me realize that I can still do this.”]

[After she gave me a nice kiss, I sat there thinking again to myself. What if Mia never came into the picture. What road would I be on? Would I still be driving or would I have swerved off the road and it all be over with? She has been by my side after everything that I have done. Most women or maybe I should say ALL women would have left me after all the shit I did. I used Allison’s emotions to hit a nerve with Damon, and get under the skin of Dane. I also wanted to break up that marriage to show just how much of a mastermind I truly am. I wanted all the spotlight to be on me. I even mocked Sahara when I said my new girl at that time MIA would beat her ass anywhere. Then that is when she went to Mia’s home and attacked and almost took her away from me for good. Sitting there at that hospital, looking at Mia all bandaged up and in pain. That is really the point when I knew everything I did was wrong and it almost cost me the woman that is changing me for the better. I knew I could not lose MIA. I would be lost without her by my side. Everyone can fear what they are going to do when their career is over, or when the money runs out or no one is there for you anymore. But that’s not a fear I have. Mia telling me she has had enough of all the bull shit I caused and brought her into. Her getting up, packing up her stuff and leaving. That’s a fear I worry about. And if somehow one day that happens. It’s going to be a game changer to my career. She is my rock right now. If she is not there, my career will be over. I will be a mess. My mind will be all over the place, I will be a loose cannon. Even worse than the times I went to kill Sahara for what she did to Mia. They will need to lock me in the Looney bin with all white walls and just a bed.]

[People can laugh and say a woman can be replaced or we don’t need them. Bull shit. They are full of total shit. I hate to use this as an example but look at what I did to Allison and Dane. I broke them apart. Had them cheat on one another. Almost killed that marriage. But now, after all of that, they seem to be stronger and closer than ever. If Dane didn’t have Allison after all that shit that went down. I’m 100 percent sure he would drink himself to a death. But she was there for him. Even Brandon is a changed man after the birth of Ezra and Michelle giving him another shot. So, yes I fear losing Mia will be a downfall to my career and myself. Just look at the few examples in this wrestling world we live in. I’m not even thinking about the real world or the celebrities. But there are more examples of this.]

[But now, after all that has happened and transpired. That FEAR will always be in the back of my mind because I am J MONT. I have a history of fucking things up. Mia is the first woman I have been faithful to and really trying to make work and go to the promised land with. I just hope at the end of the day, she doesnt let my past and recent actions affect her love for me or second guess herself for being with me. I will do everything in my power to show her that I need her, want her and want us. My career as everyone knows is VERY important to me, but when push comes to shove, i am 41 years old now. Sometimes you need to step up and make a sacrifice. If i had to make a choice if given one. I would choose MIA all day long because she is the one that makes me a better man and has shown me what true love is all about. And that might impact my career moving forward, but when you find the one that is right for you, you need to do what you have to do.]

[But right now, thank god i don’t have to think about that or make that decision. All I need to do is keep being there for Mia and show her I’m truly in love with her. And with all the alone time we have been having lately and great conversations and love, I know we are going to be ok. But that FEAR will always be there cause this is the first time i have ever felt like this about a woman.]

[FIGHT NYC needs to FEAR one thing now………………J Mont is coming back with a vengeance and with Mia by my side, to the TOP is the only place to go.]